Immune Deficiency Disorder

When I had my first post I was debating on how to start it. I usually start my story with something like this: I was in grade 6 when my sister was anorexic and I was in grade nine when she was sent away to rehab for it. That’s when it all started and that’s when I met him. This story however is about me not her so I’m starting it with a major event in my life and how I live. To do this we have to look at the past because it is the only way of understanding the present and hypothesize about the future. So here we go again it was when my doctor told my parents I was dying. Aren’t we all dying though every second of every day? Well they told my parents that I was different and that my immune system was shrinking at a rapid rate and that I was going to get really sick really often. They finally said that by the age of ten I wasn’t going to have an immune system at all. In the time between then I had mononucleosis twice, Pneumonia four times, Bronchitis, one Parasites, worms twice, the stomach flu 4 times every season a total of 16 times a year, a fever once a week, the number of times I had strep was countless, I was diagnosed with asthma, has countless ear and eye infections, the chicken pocks, once a week I would wake up with a fever, I began to have allergies to fruit, trees, and dust, I got migraines and my body was exhausted. Sometimes, at age ten, I would sleep for 24 hours straight. I was always in and out of hospitals and my parents were sick of it.

The Hospital

I was dropped off outside the hospital by my rapist. People came running outside rushed me in. My parents were notified and rape kits had been done. There was no DNA and the only mark on me was a burn behind my ear. This burn was a tiny thin line that turned into a scar and I had it for life. It took 2 days for the drugs he gave me to wear off and when I woke up I didn’t remember anything and the man was never caught. They said I passed out because of a General anaesthesia that was most likely from a dentist. They said once I was knocked out I received Diazepam and Rohypnol to keep me sedated.

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I never understood what had actually until I started watching law & order svu. My parents had told me but I didn’t no that it was wrong or what had really happened. I never remembered any of it. I know you are supposed to be bitter or act like a victim, but I’m not one. I was a happy kid. The rape was kept a secret except from my close family and I lived my life normally. The only problem was I was dying.

The Beginning

I was born in 1994 with out a doctor in the room. They thought I had Down Syndrome, from the beginning they new something was wrong with me, However the doctors were wrong I was born healthy. When I got home I had trouble sleeping, for most of my life I have had a sleep therapist. My older sister was not happy that I stole all the attention from her. When I was 2 they figured out I had anger management just as my younger sister was born. They said it was from my father because he also has this problem. I would get so mad all the time and my dad didn’t no how to deal with me. We would fight and he would sometimes hurt me, of course not on purpose just while carrying me up the stairs or by squeezing my arm to tight. When I wasn’t angry I was happy though, my friends only new me with a smile on my face and so did my family until I would loose it. When I was three I got so angry I ran away. This is where it all began. I remember trying to run to my friend’s house then being grabbed from behind. Something was put over my mouth and it was hard to breathe, that’s when I blacked out. I was so young and innocent I had no chance of running away; I never even saw it coming. Then I awoke I was in the hospital.